50 Days To My Wedding~Alot of stuff havent done yet..
CNY coming liao... seem like alot of stuff to be done...
i am kinda stuck.. erm at which point? i myself oso dunno.. LOL!
will blog after my training... super sianz...
ok that all for now.. later will come back blog again...
[Edited @ 6.45pm]
Sometimes, i feel that being a good person is not easy...
i am being to be nice to everyone ard me..
doesnt mean i am an easy target to be bullied or push ard!!..
I'm being nice bcos i use my heart to treat everyone good..
i am easy going bcos i feel that whenever i treat ppl good
ppl will treat me gd as well..
but i am wrong...
after today saw one of my cousin commented on my fb wall..
wat's wrong with 4 jie meis... actually i have 5 .. One cant make it..
so make it 4... anything wrong with that??
doesnt mean u have 6 i must have 6 =.=
I wont add her and my another cousin in as they requested b4..
cos one is married with kid who comment on fb - Jas,
the other one ( jo) can be.. but she rejected me saying jas cannot i dun wan..
is not i dun let cousin to be jiemei .. i have my own reasons..
as my shi fu say.. i cant find someone older den me or married de b jiemeis..
dun ask me why.. i cant... i dunno the reasons.. den after telling them(cousins)
they sort of bu shuang saying
1st time heard that married and older cant be jiemeis..
den u wan me to do what sia..
shi fu say cannot den!! these kind of stuff cant forced de ma..
if u wan yr ways, den why 1st place wan to go count date see which date suits..
for u and hubby to get married??
bcos all wan pin pin an an & have a mei man marriage..
den now i got my 4 besties which are single and younger den me to be jiemeis.. actually 5 one cant..
anything wrong if it become 4?
btw , is not i dun have friends ok..
is almost all my frenz are married and older den me...
and i only invited my best friends and close one to dinner..
ok back to the topic
As her wedding, she wears kua on her big day..
so doesnt mean i must follow everything she does right?!
i am not Cantonese and i no need to fulfil it as my granny say no need...
actually i wanna to wear kua in the 1st place cos once in my lifetime..
as i nv wear b4 & nv take wedding shots.
She did 'commanded' me that u must wear kua for jing cha..
but why must i do so??
even my granny , parents and mil and hubby ah ma says no need..
den she says.. dun care wat they say...
And she replied me is YOUR WEDDING even yr MIL cant say much..
If u really wear kua on yr wedding day.. BUT BUT...
den why are u insist me tat i must wear kua for tea ceremony??
if u advice me i might listen but u are COMMANDING me to wear kua..
den sorry will be my word to u...
not saying that this is my wedding lor.. no need to care so much i love it can liao..
but do u know tat I HATE THE MOST IS BEING COMMANDED?!!...
i dun like ppl to command me or order me (like force me)
to things i dun wan (in terms of my personal life)..
you told me once.. u have yr own choice to choose wat u wan n dun wan..
den why am i not given a choice to choose my tea ceremony 's tea dress or kua myself..
when i advise u on something.. u say is my choice why interfere or care..
den fine lor.. NOW is my choice too..
and i shall let u know dun interfere or care...
i am so pissed sia... after much consideration...
i decided to change to tea dress for jing cha...
A pink and sweet tea dress..
THIS IS MY WEDDING.. A DAY THAT BELONG TO ME & MY HUBBY!!
when yr wedding, we outsiders dun even have a say..
now my wedding u wanna come have say??
why must i listen..?? it might out of good will.. but thanks...
i love it to be my own ways for my own wedding..
how the stuffs i wanna to be...? doesnt mean u done it b4 i muz do it?!
anyway, i am not adding any ppl in...
i am happy enough even though one cant make it..
thanks for yr advices...
overall together with brothers , jiemeis and us already 12 of us...
no odd one out...
thanks to my jiemeis and jie advice...
they called me and sms me straight when they saw the fb post..
saying wat's wrong with 4 jie meis..
4 just nice.. not the more the merrier lor..
jie meis are to help me not there dally ard...
i feel sometimes commenting something on facebook isnt a good stuff...
that what i feel no offence for those who loves to put it on their status..
cos this kind of stuff is personal to individual.. just that i feel this way...
anyway i am not angry or what.. but i just need a place to voice out how i feel..
must be wonder why dun i confront my cousins??
is there a need to do that when someone is capable of
"twisting the words & bite u with wounds"? saying that they are so hurt..
as they are nice to advise me.. all sorts of stuffs..
when actually they already hurt u to the max ... haha~~
i am always the one being hurt!! but does they care..
mayb surface look caring... but deep down their hearts really do ma?
erm, that i am not sure.. cos i am not them...
i am not that stupid.. even though i admit i am naive
thinking u treat ppl nice ppl will cfm treat u nice back...
but that doesnt apply to all ppl..
but that doesnt reflect me badly on the comment she made...
cos i am not the person who say that comments
if the person being "shoot" back by others..
that shows a maturity of a person and the personality!!
seriously ah no offence... tat is my own thinking & stand.
i have no time to care so much or angry so much..
i have so many stuffs to busy with ..
example: arranging of transport for the guests,
writing & confirm of invitation cards again..
and etc wedding de stuff i needed to be done...
Now just Be cheerful & positive always...
cause i believe 人在做，天在看。。自己种的果， 自己自负。。
haha sound very serious on the 人在做，天在看。。自己种的果， 自己自负..
as juz a small matter...
actually, i juz feel wat i wanna type down nia..
not that serious as i say de.. :)
Dun wan to become a heartless, mean & very selfish person in end of the day...
as end of the day, it dun benefits me.. :)
it will only causes myself more and more troubles, lonely and sad..
so no point being that way...
ok i shall pen off here now...
going to have dinner and buy new year stuff with daddy..
